BackWriting is Hard

You know, I've wanted to write for quite some time now. I think to write and to be able to articulate yourself is to be clear and lucid in your thinking.

The fact that I am struggling with it, probably means that I am not clear and lucid in my thinking. At least, not as much as I would like.

A friend said to me the other day though that writing is just a muscle and it's a muscle that I have not practiced enough.

If I think about and some of the reasons why I find it hard to write, it comes down to, I think:

• I don't feel like I have very original ideas
• Everything I write feels cheesy
• I am afraid of being judged for my writing

I think that is actually pretty much it. Not so much that I'm lazy or that I lack the motivation. How are these Substackers so prolific?

I am aware of the many compelling reasons why you should write, and yet, here I still am. Probably the thing to do is just to outsource many more of these notes even if they are half-baked, or unfinished drafts. So this is a start at least.

And I did get over the procrastination stage of setting up a custom blog on my website, fiddling with the appearance, making an Obsidian-flavoured markdown parser and am onto the actual act of writing.

Probably in retrospect, much of my writing will be embarrassing. In fact maybe I should hope so as a signal of growth.